i wonder why my heart feels dead inside it feels cold and hard and petrified

OH MY GOD GUYS I JUST REACHED 50k. Admittedly, I was sitting at 49k for the past three days, but hey, life gets in the way sometimes. STILL. GREEN BAR. GONNA GET PURPLE ONCE I'M DONE WITH THIS PASSAGE.

Here's the last paragraph I wrote:

Oh my God—Stephen. With that, her train of thought finally derailed. He had been poking and prodding at her the entire time she’d known him for this sort of thing, although admittedly because he thought she was still seeing them as hallucinations. If he found out that the Rabbit was more or less real, he would immediately become suspicious of the rest. Even more so because she had never mentioned it to him before. And with his overactive imagination…

and with his last breath severus said "take it, take it!"

I wrote over 3.5k yesterday!

/celebrations

In other news, I'm sick. XD Doesn't make for very good writing... Although I've been a bad girl in the fact that I've switched stories for some of my wordcount. I'm still writing, so that's good, right?

Anyway, I'm off to eat soup and watch NCIS and think of more ways to torture my Namelss Narrator.

la vie ne vaut rien rien la vie ne vaut rien

God, look at that horrible rainbow of a NaNoWriMo update box.

I will fix that this weekend. THIS, I SWEAR.

Here are some cute things I drew though:

here i am a rabbit hearted girl frozen in the headlights it seems i've made the final sacrifice

So my laptop's charger finally gave up on life and refuses to charge my laptop. The good news is that it's not the laptop itself and that my roommate's charger actually works in it. The bad news? She won't actually let me use it.

Now I could go into a long rant about how much of a bitch that makes her and how she's kinda stupid for thinking that it will utterly destroy her charger (even though that it a) fits both computers comfortably, since they're the same make, b) I pointed out that they have the same ampage, and c) she said it 'heats up too much' and I outright proved to her that it does not), let's skip that. :U The point is, my laptop has less than 20% power and is, for all intents and purposes, unusable.

Thankfully Mark is coming up this weekend and will hopefully bring a new charger with him. If all else, my dad will mail it to me when it arrives (although I'd be pissed, as this is my second day without a working laptop and I already have to wait until friday night).

UGH I HATE NONCUSTOMIZED COMPUTERS. ESPECIALLY ONES WITH NOISY KEYBOARDS.

your heart is true you're a pal and a confidante

URGH.

So I forgot to set my time back for Daylight Savings Time on NaNo, thinking that it was done automatically. It wasn't. So those 168 words it seems to think I wrote today? I wrote those at 11.08 last night. I DON'T DESERVE THAT YELLOW BOX. GIMME THAT GODDAMN GREEN ONE.

I changed it now, but... ugh. That's just annoying. I stayed up past my bedtime last night - and with a test to take right away in the morning - just to make that wordcount to get my words in to get that green box.

Raeg.

this is a gift it comes with a price who is the lamb and who is the knife?

So. Tuesday has been asked by her brand new therapist to keep an online journal. And because she's paranoid/obsessive about these things, she changes her password every time she logs in.

Her username is "aviscarmenae" which should translate loosely to "bird of song".

Her passwords have/will include:
"TheGunpowderTreasonAndPlot" from V for Vendetta
"communityIDENTITYstability" from Brave New World
"NightlockNightlockNightlock" from Mockingjay
"ALOHAMORA" from Harry Potter
"QuothTheRaven_nevermore" from The Raven

I also want something from:
+the Artemis Fowl series
+The Lovely Bones
+how i live now
+The Great Gatsby
+To Kill A Mockingbird
+The Scarlet Letter
+the Narnia series
+Where The Wild Things Are
+Les Miserables
+Catch-22
+Message In A Bottle
+Good Omens
+WHIPLASH! & Pedestal, haha

Any more suggestions? Tuesday reads just about EVERYTHING but horror and gory stuff. She likes magical fantasy and romance, especially the star-crossed kind. "Intelligent" books are also on her list of loves. Even references to your own novels would be great! XD

i am the second alone in a faceless crowd a human caught in monochrome dreams i scream to wake up

So last night I thought it was a GRAND IDEA to go to tvtropes.

I didn't get any more preparations done last night. And, in fact, I also gave myself nightmares from reading Guts (do. not. read.) and the Eldritch Abomination page. DAMN. Eventually, I went to sleep thinking of hugging Mister Beggar (best therapy I have ever found; if you appreciate that reference, YOU ARE MY NEW BEST FRIEND) and thinking of my own horror plans. I thought of my horror to comfort myself. XD

And now we've officially started into november! EXCITING TIMES AMIRIGHT. GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE!

As a reminder, here is a link to my '10 story! (the first two chapters and 3,291 words of the third chapter are not counted in my nano wordcount, rest assured.) I also have this neat little wordcount thing to the right over there that keeps track of my wordcount here!

HAPPY WRITING!